No, it isn't 6:39 in the morning.

No, I haven't been playing since 1:23 this morning.

Yes, I will be fine at work with 3 hours of sleep.

I think I have a problem people.

heh heh heh

Fuck. I have to work 9 hours today. Ugh. Well, at least the convention is this weekend. I'm thinking Carl and I will head over Sunday to get some cool shwag.

Anson's in town. That's cool. He's a nice guy. But I'll never trust him completely. I don't know if I'll make an effort to see him. Why take chances and waste more of my time? He's lost weight, and he's almost cute. I'm happy for him. It was nice to see him, and it has been great talking online. I just don't really feel like I can trust him with my complete attention or honesty anymore. I'm not sure if I want to either. I think putting the past and the people involved where they belong would be more beneficial in the long run. It's been working out just fine so far.

::yawn:: Maybe I'll call Melissa this week. I dunno. I'm just frustrated right now. I don't think I'm mad anymore with her, if I ever was. I'm just getting sort of reclusive in my social circle. I have Carl. He makes sense to me. I don't really have any urge to go backwards right now. Melissa, she knows if shit hits the fan, I'm here for her if it's an emergency. I just need some me time for a few weeks I think.

Alyson, I miss you more than anything. I love you.

Johnny, please don't move away. You mean too much to so many.

Melissa, chill out. Hang in there. I'm still your friend. I'm just I dunno, upset right now. If you have an emergency, call. But if not, just give me some time.

That's about it. I'm really happy I'm making new friends at work. Shout out to Jake, Christina, Jeff and Samantha. You guys are great.

Kisses everyone.
Melissa

PS-I am working back to being fluent in Spanish. When I get a full time job, in addition to martial arts, I'm going to start saving to go back to Colombia. I want to at least visit the orphanage I came from, and if I can, try to find my birth mother. I decided that tonight.